Thoughts, Revelations, Truth.

And finally. Done am I with the torture..until it starts all over again in a few weeks time. Sigh. Still, theres 1 more quiz, 1 more assgmt and the seemingly endless lab reports. The paper today was quite..hm.how should I put it.." interesting" i guess. Not in a good way :P But gah. its in His hands now.So let things just be.

Besides the very weird+scary dream i had yday...I also had this revelation(if I may call it that) yday night as I was half awake and half dead on my bed after biochem saturation. It was like totally random and it just came to my mind..and the suprising thing is..this revelation has gotta do with biochem, the #1 on my list of most disliked subs in my course so far. You see, it just suddenly dawned on me that hey.Eventhough this subject is so so so darn unlikeable, yet thanks to it, i came to realize yet again how awesome God truly is. All those things I learn in biochem, like the Krebs cycle and all those other only-robots-can-remember facts reminded me of how amazing it is that God can create such complex systems so that our body can function perfectly. And He did it by just taking dirt from the ground,spat on it and ..wala! And this is the very same God who loves and cares for me everyday! now THATS cool man. haha. I dont really know if i can call this a revelation,but its certainly a cool reminder of how amazing is the God i serve. And even more ironically, this reminder came thru THIS subject of all things.haha. I still dislike the subject.obviously. But it was cool in a way that it helped opened my eyes to see something from a perspective ive never really seen before. =) Talking of which...I came across somethg in my bible the other day in a devotional section. Some people say that God doesnt exist. Science said we came from our ancestors,our ancestors came from apes,which came from something,somethg which came from amoebas, amoebas that came from the Big bang. Some find it hard to believe that there is such a thing as an infinite God who has no beginning and no end. But if everything originated from the Big bang,then what did the big bang originated from? and as long as u keep on asking, it will just go on and on and on without an answer. But the answer is that, there has to be someone that started it all.Someone that didnt come from something or someone else but was already there in the very beginning. In fact, that someone IS the one who created beginnings.
I read before somewhere, "Science has facts. but God is truth. Facts changes, the truth always prevails" =)
And I as a science student, especially after all those things i read in biochem, it would just be absurd to think that a so-called random explosion started it all. A random explosion doesnt and cannot create the complexity of our own human body,whats more the complexity of the whole universe. But there is someone and only that someone can do it so perfectly, yet in such a simple manner. Of course, the human bodies aint perfect. Diseases,sicknesses u name it. But He did not create those things. It was a result of sin, when mankind chose to go against God. But thanks to His awesome grace, there was a solution. And that solution is called Jesus, who knocks at the door of your hearts today. Whether He will come in or not, it depends on whether you are willing to open that door :)

My suppose-to-be short post turned out to be a novel :P
Hope you've been blessed :)

Of Nightmares, Oscars, and Anticipation.

I had like..one of the weirdest, freakiest, craziest dream ever.
I was in my relatives' place and they had like 2 pets(one dog and i cant reli rmbr wats the other) which appeared to be so cutesy and all. I approached the first one and out of the blue i got attacked by it or stg. And I remember there was a frog hopping away. how did THAT came into the picture..i have absolutely no idea. Then I was in a room. And there was the cuteeee lil doggy.When i wanted to play around with it, this dog suddenly had big, sharp fangs and started attacking and CHEWING my RIGHT LEG for crying out loud! I screamed(i must have.in the dream i mean) and sudd my dad appeared out of nowhere and ... the end. yeah. most probably u're like, "what the heck?!" right? told ya it was weird.Anyway the dog WAS scary okay! thank goodness i woke up or i might have just gotten wun to think im having biochem nightmares -.-

Oh and the Oscars today, was abit of a dissappointment. The mood was kinda sombre or serious albeit some funny moments here and there. The host(Jon Stewart) was ..i dont know? Seems like he's trying too hard to be funny but i think the audiences laugh at like 2 out of 5 of his jokes? (Bring Billy Crystal back!)
Anywayy.. "Enchanted" got 3 songs nominated but didnt win at all! Hmph! "So Close" by Jon McLaughlin should have taken that award back IMHO. =P Nvm,i still love that show.and their songs :D And as for Visual Effects...The Golden Compass was chosen over Transformers?! *hm okay nvm..maybe the voters were half blind or sth.* But the up side? Ratatouille won for Best Animated Feature Film, which it totallly deserved! (have u ever seen RATS as THAT adorable?!) Whoo!go Brad Bird! LOL. and Juno's win for Original Screenplay was justified =) Its a pretty cool movie. So yeah.that was the 80th Academy Awards.

Ah tomorrow is the day! When i can go for a movie this week,take a nice long nap, and relaxxx.(For a while at least) Busines stats was okay,except for one stoooopid mistake or more like one stooopid formula which toally din come across my mind and cost me 5 marks. sigh. I seem to be making stupid mistakes for like,every test i had this sem. Still, its over.no point over me ranting on about it unless im Hiro nakamura who can go back in time.

Okayy.Torture time resumes. Biochem.. here.i.come.

Two more!

Weehoo! 2 down, 2 to go! Then I can get a breather from all this madness =)
FQM paper was okay.Thank God i managed to answer most of the questions and din really have a hard time except for the PDCA cycle crap which i couldnt be bothered(or thought it wasnt THAT important for some reason) to study -.-

But still,im happy.and satisfied :) now,all i need to do is endure the worst of the worsts. --> Metabolic Biochem.
To think that i even thought of pursuing a degree in biochem before!thank goodness i did not.

CF ice cream party in 45 mins.weehoo :) will try to take pics if i can.i know my blog's been picture-deprived lately =p

Okkay.nerding time again. Business stats..here i comeeeee!(statistics has never been THIS likeable before..seriously!!)

bertahan-lah.

I cant cant cant cant wait for next tues to comeeeeee!!!!!! wheehoo!!

rant no.2

What the heck do they want me to sit and waste 65 HOURS of my life doing practically nothing for goodness sake?!!?! And sometimes i wonder if the person doing the timetable whom i shall not name here eventhough i REALLY WANT TO has brains in the first place.Like HELLO...do u expect me to work after I have class from morning till evening?! and want me to walk all the way back to my place and come back again just to 'work' cos YOU arranged the timetable in such a way?! CMON LA. Give me a break. ANNOYING PEOPLE.
sometimes i wonder if theres any purpose in me having to do all these nonsensical crap of "working" because of the scholarship. Not that im being ungrateful for the scholarship..i mean by all means, I thank God for it because it saved my parents a WHOLE lot of money instead of donating it to this money-crazed university. but right now,and since the very first day i started..i never saw any REAL GOOD OR PURPOSE in wasting hundreds of hours of my life sitting there just to fulfill the conditions. and not just for myself but heck,for every student out there who's suffering or is in an even worse condition than me.
ARGH. im SO changing department next sem.
sigh.i just feel so tired and drained.

Strength.

"Enjoy your studying life!!When you're working you'll miss it!!"

Sounds familiar?
I hope i wont be the one looking back 10 years from now saying the same thing with regret.

But for now..uni life is just....argH.TIRING.ENERGY DRAINING and PLAIN EXHAUSTING.

3 assgmts FINALLY completed and handed up last week...and nuh uh..no breaks.
2 mid term exams this week and another 2 next week. of course,how can I possibly leave out my lurveeeely lab reports out of the equation :) ... =.="

So my schedule for today? (with 2 hrs of sleep yday night)
9-10am : exam
10-1pm : hostel "work"
1-3pm : class
3-5pm : work again.

woah.timing oso like working woman,9-5pm.

Sigh.
I need strength.I need sleep.lots and lots and lots of it..but for now,i guess what i can do is just hang on to Him.
Psalms 73:26:my heart and my flesh may fail,but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Amen to that. Strengthen me Lord.and pray for me beloved siblings in Christ, kay? =)

Thats all for now.glad u enjoyed reading this whole post abt uni rants :P

loveylovey

Happy Valentines Day people!




Thank goodness for american idol tonite. LOL.

Torture your keyboard :)

101 words

free Touch typing

*i think im addicted.LOL.*

blurgh.

li anne had cookies for breakfast,lunch and dinner today. *clapclap*

im declaring a detoxing period for the next few weeks.So please spare me the tempations
:P

AH.bye holidays. ='(

Bittersweet.

Ahh.Im so drained right now. Been out the whole day today..spent half of the day at my uncle's place but I had a good time there..not to mention finally meeting my long-distanced cousin,matt after like..years :P And going back to my uncle's place is always one of my fav things to do during cny..I just feel at home there and i just enjoy the company of my cousins,eventho they're all way younger than me hehe.I guess its due to the fact that I used to stay there alot last time..ah.How time really flies.My 11 year old cousin is nearly the same height as me =.=

Ah ok.back to reality.Assignment time..

and tomorrow is my LAST day of holiday?!?
I really feel like crying right now -.-

welcome to the real world

While other people are happily munching cny cookies and collecting angpaos,



here i am on the 2nd day of CNY...




Doing microbiology assignment.



Bliss.

-.-"

Good advice?lol.

Oh yeah. I had some interesting advice from my grand-uncle during reunion dinner earlier:

Granduncle: Eh..you must choose boyfriend nicely ah..dont choose rich boys..not good.must
choose carefully ah.handsome boys no good one..must choose properly ah.very
important you know!Then must bring him see ur parents ah..

Me: *smiles in amusement*

Useful advice for you other girls out there?rofl.oh and he actually had too much of a drink earlier lol.

Double celebration

Dong dong dong chiang!!

Gong hei fatt choi chim pou yan!sek ho ho,wan ho ho,siu ho ho,collect angpao ho ho. ho mohh? (I know you CAN understand this.my cantonese aint THAT bad)



And a very HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to COLIN!


May this coming year be one of your best and most memorable years!Continue to grow from faith to faith,from strength to strength as He leads you!You've been a wonderful friend and blessing!Rock on dude! Have a great bday :D

Just a thought.

Just a thought.
We always say the inside is what counts more right.

But i guess to (almost)everyone in this world we live in these days,the outside is equally important till the point that sometimes im tempted to feel that the inside doesnt really matter as much anymore.

But thank God for this comfort and assurance :

"But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."-1 samuel 16:7

well thank You Lord that you do.and help me to learn to look at the heart even when others dont..

Eating dirt.

Eating Dirt

By JONATHAN M. KATZ

IT WAS lunchtime in one of Haiti’s worst slums, and Charlene Dumas was eating mud. With food prices rising, Haiti’s poorest can’t afford even a daily plate of rice, and some take desperate measures to fill their bellies.

No choice: Mud cookies, made of dirt, salt and vegetable shortening, are one of very few options the poorest people have to stave off hunger.

Charlene, 16 with a one-month-old son, has come to rely on a traditional Haitian remedy for hunger pangs: cookies made of dried yellow dirt from the country’s central plateau.The mud has long been prized by pregnant women and children here as an antacid and source of calcium.

But in places like Cite Soleil, the oceanside slum where Charlene shares a two-room house with her baby, five siblings and two unemployed parents, cookies made of dirt, salt and vegetable shortening have become a regular meal.

“When my mother does not cook anything, I have to eat them three times a day,” Charlene said.

Her baby, named Woodson, lay still across her lap, looking even thinner than the slim 2.8kg he weighed at birth. Though she likes their buttery, salty taste, Charlene said the cookies also give her stomach pains. “When I nurse, the baby sometimes seems colicky too,” she said.

Rising costs

Hard work: A woman preparing mud cookies.

Food prices around the world have spiked because of higher oil prices, needed for fertiliser, irrigation and transportation. Prices for basic ingredients such as corn and wheat are also up sharply, and the increasing global demand for biofuels is pressuring food markets as well. The problem is particularly dire in the Caribbean, where island nations depend on imports and food prices are up 40% in places.

The global price hikes, together with floods and crop damage from the 2007 hurricane season, prompted the UN Food and Agriculture Agency to declare states of emergency in Haiti and several other Caribbean countries. Even the price of the edible clay has risen over the past year by almost US$1.50 (RM5). Dirt to make 100 cookies now costs US$5 (RM16.50), the cookie makers say.

Still, at about five cents apiece (about 15sen), the cookies are a bargain compared to food staples.

About 80% of people in Haiti live on less than US$2 (RM6.60) a day and a tiny elite controls the economy.

Hunger relief: A woman dries mud cookies in the sun on the the roof of Fort Dimanche, once a prison, in Port-au-Prince.

Cookie recipe

Merchants truck the dirt from the central town of Hinche to the La Saline market, a maze of tables of vegetables and meat swarming with flies. Women buy the dirt, then process it into mud cookies in places such as Fort Dimanche, a nearby shanty town.

Carrying buckets of dirt and water up ladders to the roof of the former prison for which the slum is named, they strain out rocks and clumps on a sheet, and stir in shortening and salt.

Then they pat the mixture into mud cookies and leave them to dry under the scorching sun.

The finished cookies are carried in buckets to markets or sold on the streets. A reporter sampling a cookie found that it had a smooth consistency and sucked all the moisture out of the mouth as soon as it touched the tongue. For hours, an unpleasant taste of dirt lingered.

Assessments of the health effects are mixed. Dirt can contain deadly parasites or toxins, but can also strengthen the immunity of foetuses in the womb to certain diseases, said Gerald N. Callahan, an immunology professor at Colorado State University who has studied geophagy, the scientific name for dirt-eating.

Hot cakes: A market vendor sells mud cookies at the La Saline market in Port-au-Prince.

Haitian doctors say depending on the cookies for sustenance risks malnutrition.

“Trust me, if I see someone eating those cookies, I will discourage it,” said Dr Gabriel Thimothee, executive director of Haiti’s health ministry.

Marie Noel, 40, sells the cookies in a market to provide for her seven children. Her family also eats them.

“I’m hoping one day I’ll have enough food to eat, so I can stop eating these,” she said. “I know it’s not good for me.” – from:the Star Newspaper.

Sigh.the next time i complain about my food,someone please slap me back to reality.(dont have to take it literally okay).but yeah.please do.

randomness

Im currently SO addicted to HSM's 'You are the music in me'..which i din even bother downloading after watching the movie last time-.-

I need a new pair of heels!!hunting for the perfect one is like hunting for gold-.-


I got another extra day of holiday tmr woohoo!well..self-declared one :P


Ive thought of highlighting/perming(slight)/re-straighten-ing my hair after cny.Just got this sudden urge to do something different(or crazy) to my hair lately..hm.waddayathink? ideas anyone? :P